Freedom

It usually starts by walking normally on the ground… then gradually, I find myself flying… just me and the sky and everything else becomes of no value as I can no more notice any of them… I keep flying till I wake up… and I really hate this moment…. it’s when I realize that I was dreaming… but the good thing is that this dream keeps repeating itself night after night… I wish that in any of these nights I don’t wake up again… This is where I want to be… this is where I feel free… I see nothing but what I want to see… the sky… the birds… the clouds and some green and blue areas far away with some small shining lights… I can take a complete tour around the globe in no time… I race birds… jumping from one cloud to another approaching the moon and the stars… I laugh with the wind… I melt myself with rain drops… and I feel the Freedom I seek and miss in my conscious life… No more chains… no more burdens… only my own sky… and my own me.

Mena Mostafa

Lost

It is very hard to keep thinking without reaching a solution… It’s also harder when you discover that you don’t know what you really want from this world… and it is the hardest when you feel that you no longer belong to it… A while ago, I started looking at things and interpreting them very differently… first, I thought I was maturing due to some changes in my life’s circumstances… but now, I started realizing that I have a severe problem… a problem which I ignore the nature, the root cause… and the resolution… all that I know is that I feel different, I think different… and I even breathe different… I can’t see one day ahead… and I don’t want to… I feel Lost… completely Lost… I keep praying to get out of this state… and I wish I can recover soon… I know I will with God’s will… Patience is all what I need.

Mena Mostafa

My Friends

"Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rare… False friends are like leaves, found everywhere", unknown author.
From time to time, I stop to think about my life to reassess it… I do my calculations to evaluate what I gained, what I lost and what I learned… This time, I found that it is not about the targets I achieved or the opportunities I lost… rather it’s about the friends I have… I met a lot of people during the past years… some I am still in touch with… some I can hardly remember and unfortunately some I forgot… I found that the real gain in my life’s short trip is the friends I have… I am grateful for every friend I had even though if it turned out that this friend was a false one… I am thankful for every friend who stood by my side in the hard times… and who shared the good moments with me… The trip is not about the roads we walk… it is about the friends we meet… I hope you feel the same about me My Friends.
"A good friend is hard to find, hard to lose, and impossible to forget…", unknown author.

Mena Mostafa

In The Night

The wind was very nice… tender and delicate… I was the only one who couldn’t feel its coldness… my clothes were flapping… and the only thing I was thinking about was to breathe as much as I can to save its odor in my brain and to print its image in my mind… I was waiting for this moment a long time ago… and I know I might not see it again… I like the darkness… I was standing on the shore… some meters away from the waves… they were somehow in rage… but it wasn’t because of me… I know they could hear me… I know they could feel me… I felt I was part of them… I felt I belong there… I wanted to touch them… to throw myself in their heart… I wasn’t scared… I heard them calling me… but I didn’t have enough courage to answer them… to let myself melt in them… I kept looking at them wishing I can stay in this place forever… only to hear and see the waves in the darkness… In The Night… the night to which I belong.

Mena Mostafa