Mena Mostafa
Tuesday, December 07, 2010
The Real Friend
Mena Mostafa
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Deception
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Thursday, October 21, 2010
Satisfied
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Sunday, October 17, 2010
Too Weak to Be True
I've been weaker before… there were moments when I thought I am about to fall and to break down and never come back in one piece… though thanks to God I passed these very hard moments… but this time, it is different, I feel weak and… weak… yah, kind of double weakness, I don’t understand what I feel and I don’t know how to express this feeling in words… I feel that time is repeating itself… and with every repetition there are new faces… events are the same… though I still can’t digest the truth and I can’t live with it… I got used to what happens to me and though I can’t adapt… every time I find myself more and more lost and not able to understand and to cope… and finally and as usual… the only and the easiest solution is to run… run to the nowhere to find a lost self at the end… I am… Too Weak to Be True!
Mena Mostafa
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Who, What & When?!
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Saturday, September 11, 2010
Self-Confidence
Amongst the things I miss the most is Self-Confidence… Although it might not be that obvious to many people, I can feel it deep inside and I can’t get rid of this stupid feeling which makes me very self-centric inside and very others-centric outside… It’s weird how self-contradicting people can be… it’s the self that I don’t and can’t understand… it’s the self that I’m running from to face everywhere… I can’t escape and I can’t be a friend or pretend having friendship with it… It’s hard to be living with your enemy… especially when it is yourself… Even if I do trust “her” and even I have confidence in “her”… I wonder if “her” is “me”, can we be one?!!
Mena Mostafa
Thursday, September 09, 2010
Appointment
Only 30 minutes remaining… and I am not sure when I will be able to see her again… I didn’t know what to say… I couldn’t even speak… I just kept looking at her and thinking about the remaining time… I then switched to thinking about when we’ll leave this life… we don’t know the exact time… not even something near that time… we just live and we don’t think… we forget the most important Appointment in our life and we know nothing about it… and do nothing for it… I kept staring and thinking… my throat was pushing my tongue to say something and I couldn’t… I was suffocating… my mind with my thoughts… and my heart with my feelings… She was starting a new life… and I was starting a new end… all what I know is that I walked her to her car… said good bye… and turned around with an eye full of tears… I will miss her… and I’ll keep praying for her to come back safe.
Mena Mostafa
Friday, August 06, 2010
Contradictions
It’s between what you want, what you are and what you will be… And it’s been since a very long time, I don’t remember from when exactly, but this is one of the most close feelings to me… it keeps accompanying me everywhere… and I can’t get rid of it… Maybe it is due to how I was raised… the different cultures I was exposed to since my early years… then the different and total changes that happened to me later on… Most of the times I don’t know who I am and what I really want… I keep thinking about the things I did… though I don’t regret them… I terribly feel self-contradicting… and this feeling extended itself to others… I feel that people around me are more self-contradicting… unpredictable and totally un-understandable. I don’t know… is it me or the Others?! Am I a part of this chaos or apart from it? I really don’t know… just Contradictions!
Mena Mostafa
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Desperate
I find it weird how small “issues” upset people in dramatic ways… while other people are being killed and have much more bigger “issues”… Why do I always find myself walking in the opposite direction of most people and always colliding with them?! Why can’t I submit and live my life as others do without paying great attention to such minor “issues”? Why do I wake up every morning imagining that the world will change… that things will be different… and to my surprise, nothing changes, everything is just the same… as expected!! I wish I wake up some day to find myself someone else… Yes, it is me who should be changed as nothing else will! I am my problem! I admit this… and I admit being passive and… Desperate! Oh, God…
"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars", Ralph Waldo Emerson.
Mena Mostafa
Monday, April 19, 2010
At This Age
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Colors
Azure clear sky… red vivid roses … green high trees… blue calm seas… yellow soft sand… tender wind… white nice people… shiny clean streets… light, laughs and love everywhere… I have wings carrying me to all places… there is a pure smile on my face… I have no problems… I am not just content, I am happy too… I know my way… I love tomorrow… and cherish today… I can sleep with no fear… not worrying about the future… Basic, primitive and simple life… with no complications, barriers, anxieties, burdens… A life where you don’t want to close your eyes in order not to miss a moment of beauty… An encouraging life to think and to be creative in… a life that makes you feel like a human… A life that can be “lived” and that can be called “life”… A life with Colors other than the black… There is no harm in dreaming except waking up and living the next “colorless” day(s)!
Mena Mostafa
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Death of a Fighter
Thursday, February 25, 2010
A Rook
Saturday, February 06, 2010
The Glasses
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Open the Door
I have to Open the Door… though I still don’t know to where it will lead me… but I have to free myself… “…Open the Door”… there might be light somewhere!
The Voluntary Prison
Image Credit Earlier I was trapped . But now, I chose it, I chose The Voluntary Prison , it became an integral part of me. I can’t leave it ...
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I sometimes wonder if the sea is happy… Why the sea?! Because I think it had everything it needs… it’s full of water… it’s vast… it has neig...
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There was a time when I thought I had friends… real friends… and now, I feel very lonely again… with no one around but sad feelings and los...
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People keep walking in and out from my life… It’s really easy to enter someone’s life and leave it after a while whether you wanted it or no...